january 7th 2014

one of those things that I find so very difficult is being so different, its terrifying to people. I unfortunately cannot hide what I have anymore its had because each day I see on Facebook people posting about their fun day with friends or their sad because their girlfriend or boyfriend broke up with them. I honestly dream about having the biggest worry in my life being getting a date for the formal dance or planning a carpool to a party. I realize now that my life just wont be like that now or not for a long time or maybe not ever. I know I have been this hurdle/challenge for a reason and I truly always think about beating this. I wish I did not have to feel so alone, I miss always having a friend to text. growing up is something we all do, we just end up growing in different ways, speeds and at different times. eventually time will show how far we all have come and  how much we have grown.

update; seeing I know many of you who read my blog I thought I would let you know. I still have not heard anything about an appointment in Ohio. I will let everyone know when I do get an appointment