I am so very pleased to say that I have an appointment to see the specialist. I am so excited and anxious and actually really nervous! You know how its better to not know something, than to know it!! That is how I feel when it comes to thinking about getting a confirmed diagnosis. I am really looking forward to "recovering" getting back in shape. I cant wait till I can run around and not sit on the sidelines of everything. I am looking forward to moving past the feeling of being stuck in time while everyone is running past me. All of these things I cant wait for, but they still scare me. I read a quote one day, I don't remember what it was exactly but I remember it being about fear and that if we don't have fear we cannot have courage! Courage is something I am working on, I am trying to turn my fear into courage. I really will be ready for anything that comes at me!!
If everyone picked one thing that they are scared of and used that fear as courage, we could all tackle anything that comes our way.
Thanks for reading.
Hannah
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
january 7th 2014
one of those things that I find so very difficult is being so different, its terrifying to people. I unfortunately cannot hide what I have anymore its had because each day I see on Facebook people posting about their fun day with friends or their sad because their girlfriend or boyfriend broke up with them. I honestly dream about having the biggest worry in my life being getting a date for the formal dance or planning a carpool to a party. I realize now that my life just wont be like that now or not for a long time or maybe not ever. I know I have been this hurdle/challenge for a reason and I truly always think about beating this. I wish I did not have to feel so alone, I miss always having a friend to text. growing up is something we all do, we just end up growing in different ways, speeds and at different times. eventually time will show how far we all have come and how much we have grown.
update; seeing I know many of you who read my blog I thought I would let you know. I still have not heard anything about an appointment in Ohio. I will let everyone know when I do get an appointment
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